Yesterday was Borders magazine garbage day!
I got like 30 magazines! today will be spent reading gossip and judging celebs fashion choices, drooling over recipes, and being inspired by arts and crafts. I also got a chicks with dicks porn to freak mark out. haha

so my LJ is certainly dead. Hopefully it can be weaned back to life.

I am facebook OBSESSED. I've been trying really hard at being better at life.
I've been putting myself out there and trying to make friends and be more involved instead of sitting around the house all the time.

Mark went out of town to play a show so this weekend has been very lonely.

I am not very good at focusing right now so this entry is over.

UGH. So I went to the doctor for the first time in 6 1/2 years. I made an appointment to get adjusted because I slipped going down some stairs while holding Emaline (Wednesday) and really fucked up my back and was in fighting-back-tears pain our whole vacation this weekend. So I woke up this morning and it felt a little bit better for the first time since Thursday, but I decided to keep my appointment anyways, because tomorrow I start watching another little girl and I really didn't want to wake up tomorrow and it hurt really bad again and have to carry around TWO babies all day.

So I go and he literally asks me like 3 questions writes me a prescription and says I'm done. WTFFFFFFFFF

I am/was so mad. THIS IS WHY I NEVER GO TO THE DOCTORS THEY NEVER DO ANYTHING FUCKING HELPFUL, so I spent $80 on the appointment and it would probably be at least another $20 to get the RX filled, but I don't even think I'm going to take it in because even though he said its fine while I'm nursing its L3, which IMO isn't appropriate for this situation.

L3 MODERATELY SAFE:
There are no controlled studies in breastfeeding women, however the risk of untoward effects to a breastfed infant is possible; or, controlled studies show only minimal non-threatening adverse effects. Drugs should be given only if the potential benefit justifies the potential risk to the infant.

# Per Hale, should be used with caution due to its long half-life and its effect on baby's cardiovascular system, kidneys and GI tract; short-term, infrequent or occasional use is not necessarily incompatible with breastfeeding.




In other news...

We went to Daytona Beach for the LLL conference and had a lot of fun, the weather was kind of dreary which would have sucked if we weren't from a beach town, but we thought it was nice because it made the temperature cooler.
I went up to Gainesville last week to go to a Aspiring Students meeting at the Midwifery school. I definitely want to go, a new class doesn't start until NEXT August (I thought a new class would start every semester.) But I figured that will actually be better because I can transfer back to the salon up there (hopefully) the winter and have a year to work 4-5 days a week and get some clients before I have to start doing a lot of clinical stuff for school when I will have to cut back working to just 2-3 days a week.


I don't feel like thinking anymore. So the end.

Last night Emaline went to sleep at 7. SEVEN FUCKING PM!!! This was the best thing to happen ever! Normally she doesn't go to sleep till 10-11 AND it takes at least an hour to get her to sleep. So then we hang out for a couple hours and before we know it its 1-2 am. But we actually got 4 hours of hang out time AND went to sleep at a decent time! So I woke up way more refreshed then normal and got a bunch of laundry and cleaning done.

When Emaline woke up she was in a great room and actually helped me by picking up all her toys and putting them in the toy boxes so I could vacuum! Then we went to the post office to pick up some diapers and to salvation army for 1/2 of clothes day! I don't really like going in the morning because it is soo busy and I seem to find less stuff since they havent' put out the days new stuff yet. But I have LLL tonight. Anyways.. I found a few really cute dresses for Emmi and I got a pair of skinny Levis that fit perfectly and are LAVENDER! Emaline was pretty much a little monster the whole time we were there but owell. She took a short (5 min) nap in the car on the way home and it made her mood do a 180.

Later Tara and I are going to tampa to go to Ikea, visit Dana's new apartment, and maybe to a Salvation Army over there.

I don't really know why but I am in the best mood ever.

Though one annoying thing is that I REALLY need a haircut, I cut it really short a few weeks ago and it already feels so overgrown and poofy. I feel like a q-tip head!

I downloaded every Ben Folds album and am re-obsessed! also I an re-obsessed with She & Him and Regina Spektor.


ANDANDANDAND if you are on Facebook you should make a farm and be my neighbor!

pictures to come soon
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So its really hard for me to get Emaline to nap when I have her during the day (she falls asleep fairly easily for my mom, mark and megan.) Usually I can not get her to sleep unless we go somewhere in the car, and then when I get her out of the car I can keep her in the sling and she will most of the time stay asleep.

I am usually pretty good at tuning people out with their parenting advice, but it seems that everyone thinks that she is old enough to cry it out. The ONLY time we've ever let her CIO is in the car, and even then if its a longer trip one of us will get in the back with her and try to entertain her.

Anyways.. today I decided that she was being too crabby and needed to nap, so we took a bath, nursed, read some books and I put her in her crib to cry. Giving her a ten minute limit, she fell asleep within the 10 minutes but is STILL sniffeling. It is breaking my heart.

SO whats your opinion? Is she old enough to understand, therefor its not CIO? Does it get better? Is she still too young and I should just do what I was doing before? Is her need for naps more important then a few minutes of crying? What did/do you do with your kids?

I feel like facebook killed my LJ friends list.

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I feel like everything is pretty shitty right now, but life is still pretty great.

The Bad;

My mom (parents?) HATE me right now. I don't think I did anyone thing to piss her off, shes just coming to the realization that she thinks I'm a horrible person and doesn't want anything to do with me. Or maybe I did something horrible to her and am just too self involved to realize. IDK. So I had to change my work schedule so that I don't work during the days anymore so she doesn't have to watch her anymore.

All of our wedding plans are put on hold because 1. We were planning on getting married at my parents house and 2. because my parents were paying for all of the food. We were planning on sending invited out in the next few weeks, but now we have no idea where we are going to have it and have to start everything from scratch.

We were planning on getting a second car, well I talked to the mortgage guy and he told us it will make it harder for us to get approved to buy a house if we have a car loan. So we have to wait on that so thats just frustrating. Because mark can't go anywhere while I am at work, so then I have to run all the errands on my days off.

Work. his and mine.


The Good;

Mark is my best friend and I love him so much. he gets on my nerves becuase he is not the most responsibe thing in the world, but hes trying and improving everyday.

Tara and Sean are our new friends, we've hung out every week I think and we always have a great time. Its great to be around people who "get" you. We leave every hang out session with the feeling that we just went on an awesome date!

Emaline is the cutest thing ever. I love her more and more every day.

A LLL leader approached me about becoming a leader, I start the process next January.

There is a new splash park and its FREE AND AWESOME! I want to go every single day.

Yesterday was awesome, Mark had the day off so we went to the zoo, then we looked for cars for the rest of the afternoon. We really want a Dodge Caliber or a Mazda 5, but Mazda 5s are pretty hard to find used. So hopefully we will find something soon.
Last night we went to the stadium in dunedin (a few blocks from our house) and emaline danced and played with little kids on the field, listened to a "parrothead" band, and we watched fireworks. Emaline was freaking out when the fireworks first started! I was kind of sad, but I just nursed her and held my hands over her ears and by the end she was at least smiling. I swear she didn't blink the whole time though, she seemed too terrified to even cry ) :

Now I have to make sausage balls and go to work. Hopefully we are busy so I can make some money! Mark and I are going to the LLL parenting conference in September so I am saving all my tips until we have enough to pay for the trip. The hotel is beautiful, oceanfront, and only $105 a night. I'd really like to be able to stay two/three nights and make a nice vacation out of it.

Wendy didn't die! We think maybe she had a stroke because she really came back from the brink. She looked like she would die any second all weekend, and then just started feeling better. I knew she was back to normal when she started barking like a crazy lady again.

So everything is back to normal!

Tomorrow is my birthday and the first thing I have to do is go to the vet and put Wendy to sleep.

) :

I just had the best trip to publix!!

I found a $5 off $25 coupon in the phone book, they had Morning Star Farms and Ben and Jerry's BOGO Free, and I had a coupon for Ben and Jerry's!

For $20.98 I got 10 Morning Star Farms products, two pints of Ben and Jerry's, a quarter of watermelon and some veggie snacks for Emmi.

Yay!

This almost makes up for the $35 I spent at old navy!

We have our printer sitting on the floor under our desk and Emaline LOVES to push the buttons and climb on top of it, unfortunately she ALWAYS hits her head on the desk and ends up crying. So after spending like 4 months letting her play on it and hurting herself I had the bright idea of just unplugging it so that it didn't light up or make weird noises anymore and now she couldn't care less about it. Unfortunately for me now that I want to use it, I can't find the power cord anywhere! I was pretty sure that I just unplugged it from the back of the printer and didn't actually put the cord anywhere or even unplug it from the wall but it is GONE! I've look in all the places I can imagine someone could have possibly put a random cord but can't find it.

SO ANNOYING!


Today has been a pretty good day off so far. I went to Old Navy because Mark needed flip flops ($2.50) and ended up buying myself a dress and two shirts. Oops....


Nvm. I found the cord, Mark put it in Emalines closet while he was cleaning. Who wouldn't have thought to look there!?

mark and I need to make more money. But we don't want to work opposite shifts all the time so that we never have any family time and we don't want my mom to watch emaline any more then she does (preferably less.) Marks great idea is a doggy daycare and mine is a sno-cone cart.
Any ideas for jobs that can be done from home or something that Emaline can be included in?

There is a dead coyote/wolf/monster on the side of the road that I drive by on the way to work, its been there for more then two weeks now. I keep wondering if it rots all the way if there is something I could make out of the bones?

Emalines birthday was amazing. Everything was perfect. Everyone loved the food we made and all the kids got along so well. I haven't looked at any of the pictures my mom took yet though. I finally decided that we NEED a camera. We barely have any pictures from the last 6 months. I'm just going to put it on our Best Buy card and pay it off in a few weeks.

I'm really itching to cut my hair lately. Its finally long but it feels so boring. / :

For any of you that live locally we are having a huge charity thrift sale July 11th so if you have anything you want to donate please let me know. Even if you just go through your closet and grab a few shirts/shoes that you dont' wear anymore it will be majorly appreciated. Or come to the sale and buy some treasure!

Emaline is currently sitting on the kitchen floor, naked, taking the dogs food peice by peice and placing it in their water bowl. I know that I should make her stop but it feels like the first time all day shes been happy. I don't know if maybe she is getting new teeth or something but she has been in a horrible mood and biting me all day. We went grocery shopping and I felt like "that mom", she would seriously not.stop.screaming. nothing would distract her, not boobs, being carried, sitting in the cart and playing with the food, not even all the nice strangers making goo goo faces at her. It was so rediculous.

So her party is watermelon themed and I am trying to figure out what to serve as far as food goes.

I got a vegan cupcake book from the library and was hoping I would get "Babycakes" a vegan dessert/cake book, but it hasn't come in yet. I'm not sure if I should make something or just go the easy route and get someething from Publix.
So far I'm planning to make; hummus, salsa, guacamole, and maybe some sort of bean/veggie mexican dip.
And putting together a veggie tray, tortilla chips and fruit platter/salad.
Jackie also had the briliant idea of pb&j sandwhiches cut into cute shapes with cookie cutters, so I will probably do something like that.

I really hate all things related to food, I don't knwo how to make anything so this is all very annoying.

Anyways Emaline is no longer happily making a mess so I guess I should go clean her up and entertain her.

Marks computer is still not fixed but I got a new harddrive for my iBook, so thats great. We've been feeling dead to the world for too long.

Emaline is crazy lately, lots of tantrums when she is tired, Mark and I still can't get her to sleep without nursing. ever. My mom has no problem getting her to sleep when she is at her house thogh, without a bottle or anything.

Her birthday is Saturday and we're having a party at our house. She started walkign a few weeks ago and is pretty much awesome at it. she can walk all the way across rooms, turn around and walk back no problem. She can climb onto the couch and get off our bed. She is definitly "behind" in the verbal skills though, she makes a lot of sounds but doesn't say any words at all and doesn't make any sounds on command (that we've noticed I guess.) Also she is really into biting. /: Which my boobies do not appreciate. I guess she is old enough to start drinking cows milk now, but I am having a problem with that, I know that we eat dairy products but I just can't bring myself to give Emaline any. But I hate being stressed about pumping for work and making sure I have enough breast milk to get through my shifts. It doesnt' help that Emmi pretty much doesn't eat any "regular" food at all, at best a few baby bites a day.

We went and saw The Hangover yesterday and it was SO FUNNY!

I have to go now becuase Emaline is a crying mess. / :